Lookup a mystic by the name of "Sadhguru" on youtube and watch his videos, also check out jason gregory. It's totally eye opening and life changing. You NEED this.
I can't possibly explain it all in one post. but, to give you a hint: everything we strive for in the outside world is all for naught. At the end of the day, what matters is your internal state of mind, how you process inputs. we keep trying to rearrange the outside world, as if the outside world was a representation of our minds.
Look, I'm not saying everyone will agree with everything he says/teaches and you don't have to. He's asked about literally everything and he's no expert on Everything nor does he claim to be.
But, his core teachings are truly fundamental to all human beings. His core teachings are not about pseudoscience/politics, it's about how we maintain our state of mind and how we see the world around us, something the author of the post is severely struggling with.
Sadhguru is literally a fraud who swindles people in the name of religion. If he really cared about spreading his teachings, he wouldn't be taking thousands of rupees for his isha yoga courses. Ironically he's right now biking across two continents to spread awareness about pollution.
I can't possibly explain it all in one post. but, to give you a hint: everything we strive for in the outside world is all for naught. At the end of the day, what matters is your internal state of mind, how you process inputs. we keep trying to rearrange the outside world, as if the outside world was a representation of our minds.